In a slump

Lately, my hormones are taking a toll on me. Pretty sure it's a combination of stressing about my Momma and Gamma, my husband and his battles' safety, and worrying about the future. =/.

 I'm really scared of how this deployment may affect my husband. He lost a really good friend today, and he's pretty broken about it. I just wish I could take all the hurt away. Will's a pretty sensitive guy to begin with, so I can only imagine how he's dealing with it. I pray I'm strong, and unselfish enough, to handle all of our life changes. My husband is my world, but I'm not a fool. I see all the time about how deployments can change people...something just snaps. =/. We've maintained  good communication, and I pray we learn to adapt to one another again come redeployment.

 My Momma is battling this dementia to the best of her ability...and so far she's winning. But I can't stop myself from fearing she won't recognize me when we visit in a couple months. I've been trying to research the disease, to educate myself, and some of the published studies concern me. Her mental health can go downhill so quickly, without much warning.

 And my Gamma is nearing her 90's. These two women,...mean everything to me. They gave up so much for me, without complaint. They've always had my back, and I'm so grateful for their presence.

 I go soon for my next round of Clomid. I pray it works. I want nothing more than to start a family with Will, and I pray that it's in God's plan for us.


So many other changes are happening. I've put everything into some friendships, to no results, and I'm just drained, and it pains me. =(.

Sorry for the pity party guys.

Already Over April Fool's Jokes

Stolen from Amber who stole it from her friend : 
So I'm just gonna say it. With April fool's day coming up this weekend if you're gonna post that you're pregnant (and really not) or post the picture of a test with just kidding in the window, all for some silly April fool's joke...please delete me now. Thank you.

Pretty much my thoughts! - Sidenote: Being pregnant isn't a joke, it's a blessing. Recognize that, and don't make someone who isn't able to get pregnant suffer just to play a 'Gotcha!'




...my prayers are with a certain friend on this so-called 'holiday.'

Fertility Struggles

Today I met with my OB about fertility drugs. Namely, progesterone and Clomid. I'm really scared, kinda excited. We learned that my tubes and everything look good, but I'm not ovulating every month like I'm suppose to. So that's where the prescriptions come in. I pray that this works, and soon we're have a baby Braxton or baby Kayli. <3. I'm so glad I have my amazing husband Will, my Momma and Gamma, and so many amazing friends to help me through this, and to pray for me. Only time will tell =).

Looking forward to this week.

Today I plan on finishing unpacking. All of the clothes washed and hung up. Then maybe getting stuff out of storage. Really need to finish that by this weekend.

Tomorrow is my baby doctor appointment. So freaking excited. Fingers crossed for good news.

Wednesday, I'm gonna be spending the day with Jess, and she's gonna help me get more stuff out of storage.

Thursday is a normal doctor appointment, boo =/.

And Friday I have a BBQ =).

Yay for busy weeks! =).

Pretty friggin excited

As not to violate OSPEC, I just realized a milestone in the deployment happened today =D. I just want Will home sooner than later. Still asking for prayers for the Bulldog Brigade, and all of the other troops so courageously serving. <3.

...also asking for prayers for a friend and she gets the answers she needs soon.

10 DAYS UNTIL I SEE THE BABY DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

....and now back to laundry and America's Most Wanted.

Last Friday Night

was pretty awesome. Went and saw Daughtry as he performed for the troops and their families. Paid $10 for the beer garden, exclusively so I could get a t-shirt ;), gave my friend's hubby my free beer lol. After the concert, I went to main Bliss to go see 21 Jumpstreet. Could NOT stop laughing. Jessica, go take Robbie to see it. =D. Channing Tatum....oh boy hehe. After the movie, we stopped by the little bar/restaurant on post, Shamrock's since it was technically St.Patty's day. Had a yummy Blue Hawaiian,...except it was obviously colored green for the holiday. Came home, and crashed. I needed severe non-stop sleep so badly.

I'm pretty proud of Will and myself. We set a goal to get a specific amount in two separate savings account in January, and with this pay check...we got to that amount. So now we raised the stakes, on top of keeping up with our other bills. Traveling to and from FL, on top of unexpected things, and R&R set us back a little bit, but heck, we still did it. =D. If we meet our new goal by the time he gets home, as well as the other stuff we want done (his exhaust is messed up, and he really wants his speakers fixed and windows tinted)...we're gonna celebrate with a new living room set =D. Ours came from Big Lots, and they held up well for the 3 years we owned them, but the saying 'you get what you paid for' is deff true. So, moving on to actual quality furniture =).

Hope everyone has a good St.Patty's Day, and remainder of the weekend <3.

Back in TX

 Some pictures from home =). Loved loved LOVED spending time in FL <3. But it's great to be back in TX too =)).