To My Teenage Self

                                          Dear Liz,

You're experiencing a whirlwird of emotions as you begin middle school. Even though you were invisible in elementary school, for some reason guys begin noticing you this year. You'll 'date' a bunch of guys, but each and every single one of them will be a waste of time and tears. None of them are worth it. You'll join Band and realize you're actually naturally good at the clarinet. Even though you get teased for this, DO NOT give it up. Your future husband loves hearing you play. You also join Drama Club. No surprise there since you're known as a drama queen. You'll be in two plays and two talent shows and you'll miss it when it ends. Thankfully your friendship with Miranda survives all the ups and downs. No surprise there, fast forward a few years and you'll be close to two decades of friendships. You meet other people though. And some are just not good for you. But every decision is a stepping stone. Own up to it. Your mother will take a higher paying job during this, and you get kinda bratty thinking you're all that because you get everything you want. Stop that.

Here comes high school. You'll still be the smart girl, actually end of being one of the top 4 GPA's of your freshmen class. You'll do marching band. You'll still be involved in Beta Club. But things are about to change.

Freshman year you make a decision. A decision you're not really proud of. You lose a major part of you to someone who doesn't deserve it. And you make some huge mistakes when it comes to your walk with Jesus. You'll think you're in love. But trust me, you're not. You think you're some kind of awesome because he chose you. News spreads because even though he's older than you, he's not more mature. You'll rise above it, and people will eventually talk about someone else, but it causes conflict with some of your closest friends. No guy is worth it.

Sophomore and junior years are about the same. You start to care more about a social life than your academic one. You'll still graduate at the top of your class but you know you could've done better. This isn't to say that was a mistake. You made a lot of good memories. But education should always be more important.

Senior year. The year you waited for. It starts out really good. You'll like a guy from another town. Don't put too much thought into him. So much wasted energy and time. Your Momma & Gamma will get you a car. A gorgeous 2005 Pontiac Sunfire that you still own to this day. You'll spend every waking moment with your friends. You guys are practically inseperable. But people change. Yourself included. Never forget those girls. They stayed by your side, even if they're not now. In May, right before Graduation, you'll vow to your friends the next guy you date will be the man you marry. Then you meet someone in Burger King, randomly. Your friends are concerned because you fall for him, and you fall hard. They have reasons to worry. Your dating track record is horrible. You try to see the best in everyone, and you like the attention. But with this guy, things are different. He doesn't want you for your body. He likes your mind. Soon, you graduate. High school is over. But your story doesn't end here.

In the fall, you begin at a community college. By this time, for personal reasons, your boyfriend has moved in with you. You are a few months into your first job. You struggle slightly with college. You end up dropping a class, which turns out not to be the end of the world. Your boyfriend leaves for the Army. 5 months into your relationship, and suddenly you're dealing with a LDR with no communication. Keep your head up though, good things are about to come. He comes home for Christmas 5 weeks later. And suddenly you are ENGAGED. You plan to spend a few years engaged. But the best of plans aren't always the well designed ones. You'll marry 6 months later.

And then the life you have always known is no more. You move more than 1600 miles to be with your husband. You plan on doing courses while in Texas, but within a month of you moving there, you get seriously sick. So sick that you'll have to have two surgeries in a span of 7 weeks. In fact, your Momma and Gamma will visit you shortly after moving and the day they are due to leave you land in the hospital with a gallbladder infection with gall stones, kidney infection with kidney stones, gastroenteritis and a UTI. It's safe to say you'll be miserable for a while. You'll turn 20 by yourself. You quickly learn with the military, time together is not promised. But you grow strong, you learn to adapt.


Coming from 23 year old Liz, I'm really proud of you. You didn't always make the best of decisions but you made the most of life. And I'm so thankful you never gave up.

Every Storm Runs Out of Rain

I pray Gary Allan knows what he's singing about because at times it feels as though I'm drowning. Good news first. Last week was my 23rd birthday. I love birthdays and Will never fails to surprise me. I got a Little Mermaid cake, Little Mermaid fairy tale wedding set and a promise to let me pamper myself when taxes came in. We had Genghis Grill for lunch and went to see 21 & Over. It was hilarious. Will left for the field that Monday. Field trainings never really bother me as much as this one did. It was our first separation since deployment ended. That and the fact last time Will was in the field he got rushed to the hospital. So I was slightly creeped out. But prepping for our big move to GA kept me busy. I'm so excited to leave here. Will and I belong on the East Coast. I have a feeling our family will happen as soon as we breathe the fresh air. Speaking of, yesterday was a rough day. March 8th, 2011 is the date my HCG levels hit zero after my ectopic pregnancy and following methotrexate treatments. Some people may find it....not sure how to describe it, but I can tell you I'll never get over the loss of our two angel babies. To quote a Twitter hashtag, sorry not sorry. Will got home yesterday so that made it slightly better. So many people have doubted our marriage but we will prove them wrong. Thankfully I've wised up about the hurry up and wait and I made a crock pot meal since Will didn't get released until about 23:30 last night. It turned out divine. I made a French onion pot roast with red potatoes, shallots and mushrooms. My mouth is salivating at the memory of the smell and taste lmao.

This week was actually decent. Will and I decided we were each getting a certain amount of money for taxes, Lu was getting groomed, purchasing one thing for the house and the rest was going to our PCS fund. I got my hair and nails done, Will got a FSU basketball jersey and jacket and we got a Keurig. I don't always want coffee, but we can't afford $5 cups every time I have a craving. Lol. So hopefully this will help my addiction lmao. We got the red Mini and it's adorable. I made myself a cup of the Folgers' Colombian the other day and it was perfect.

I'm sitting here blogging as Will does some class necessary for WLC. We pray after this, his promotion will come quickly so good luck thoughts for him would be lovely. Thanks <3 at="" attempt="" i="" keeping="" least="" more="" or="" promise="" start="" this="" to.=")</p" to="" up="" with="">
XOXOXOXO y'all!!

I just wanna cry

.......It's hard to collect my thoughts right now. The infertility struggle is hitting me hard tonight. Laying here sobbing. All we want is a family. 💔😔

Valentine's Day 2013

Seeing as my husband was deployed last year, and I didn't even get to hear his voice, this year we're celebrating. And we're going all out.
 Not to make others jealous, or feel bad, but because that's what Will and I do. Always have. Even last year, he got me a bear, chocolates, dinner, roses and jewelry. However, February 14th is not the only day we show affection to each other. I'll admit. Will spoils me crazy. But if there's anything Will wants, I try my hardest to make the finances work so he can get it. (His PS3, his tint,speakers and stereo for his car, FSU jersey, etc.) I'm just seeing so much hostility, and it makes me kinda sad & kinda irritable.  You're suppose to be honest in a blog. Much like Twitter, you really don't have to read this.

Our plans include me cooking one of his favorite meals tonight: steak with pasta and green beans. I already baked Valentine's Day cookies. And I have chocolate covered strawberries ready to go. I'm planning to watch some kind of love movie, before the Glee Valentine episode.

Tomorrow is when we're going out. Japanese steakhouse and hopefully Safe Haven. I'm wearing the cutest dress while Will has a dress shirt and pants pressed and ready to go.

I hope everyone else has an amazing day!! Xoxoxoxo!!

❤💋- Liz

Infertility Story

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Time for An Update

Sorry about the lack of blogging. Life has been crazy hectic.

The husband returned home safely from Afghanistan. To which I am so incredibly thankful. And he also reenlisted, so I'm an Army wife for 4 more years.

We got to spend three weeks in FL. Finally got a honeymoon. Went to Universal and Islands of Adventures, plus Sea World. Went to Tallahassee and Daytona to see friends. Spent my Momma's birthday with her finally. And me and Will enjoyed The Melting Pot, deff a new and fun experience.

Traveled back to TX through Hurricane Isaac. So not fun.

Arrived home just to land in the hospital. Had miscarriage #2 on the ironic day of Labor Day (just b/c of the name).

Husband's unit sponsored a marriage retreat in Ruidoso,NM 3 weeks ago.  Our marriage has always been strong but that deff rejuvenated us.

And that brings us to now. We're currently in the process of PCSing to Ft.Bragg, NC. My heart has never been so happy. The East Coast is where we belong.

Hope this post finds everyone well ❤.

Baby steps (no pun intended ;) )

Still kinda upset last month was pretty much a wasted month in our TTC struggle. But on to amazing news.

My menstrual cycle started right on time this month.

I took a fertility test today, and I'm fertile! =D.

I go for a pre-conception check up on Tuesday, which is our 3 year wedding anniversary <3.

I start my 3rd round of Clomid on Wednesday.

Will is due home sooner than later now.

Prayers work <3.