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Time for An Update

Sorry about the lack of blogging. Life has been crazy hectic.

The husband returned home safely from Afghanistan. To which I am so incredibly thankful. And he also reenlisted, so I'm an Army wife for 4 more years.

We got to spend three weeks in FL. Finally got a honeymoon. Went to Universal and Islands of Adventures, plus Sea World. Went to Tallahassee and Daytona to see friends. Spent my Momma's birthday with her finally. And me and Will enjoyed The Melting Pot, deff a new and fun experience.

Traveled back to TX through Hurricane Isaac. So not fun.

Arrived home just to land in the hospital. Had miscarriage #2 on the ironic day of Labor Day (just b/c of the name).

Husband's unit sponsored a marriage retreat in Ruidoso,NM 3 weeks ago.  Our marriage has always been strong but that deff rejuvenated us.

And that brings us to now. We're currently in the process of PCSing to Ft.Bragg, NC. My heart has never been so happy. The East Coast is where we belong.

Hope this post finds everyone well ❤.

Baby steps (no pun intended ;) )

Still kinda upset last month was pretty much a wasted month in our TTC struggle. But on to amazing news.

My menstrual cycle started right on time this month.

I took a fertility test today, and I'm fertile! =D.

I go for a pre-conception check up on Tuesday, which is our 3 year wedding anniversary <3.

I start my 3rd round of Clomid on Wednesday.

Will is due home sooner than later now.

Prayers work <3.

Joined the iPhone club

Will and I are now proud owners of iPhones =D. Will got his black 4, I got the white 4s. YAY! I get to FaceTime with one of my best friends, anddd my little sister now. =D.  I am in loooooove. I know this is a random post, but hey =D.

Will reenlisted the other day!!!!!!!!!!!!! The Army now has my hubs until 2016 <3.

And it's less than two weeks till our 3 year wedding anniversary, go us!!!!!!!

Andd we'll be in Florida in August =D.

Extremely good week.

Memorial Day 2012

Remember during this long weekend of fun, there are families still hurting over the loss of fallen family members who died protecting our freedoms. My prayers are especially with the families of the following Bulldog Brigade fallen soldiers: SPC Edens, SPC Acosta, PFC Turner, SFC Clark, SPC Lumley, SPC Mayberry, and PVT Vaquerno, and the unidentified soldiers we recently lost. ♥, we will never forget.

I saw a soldier kneeling down,
for this was the first quiet place he had found.
He had traveled through jungles, rivers and mud
He'd tasted sweat and shed his blood.

He folded his hands and looked to the sky
I saw his tears, as they welled in his eyes.
He spoke to God, and this is what he said.
"God Bless my men, who now lie dead;

I know not what You have in mind,
but when You judge them, please be kind
when they come before You, they will be poorly dressed
but they'll walk proudly, for they have done their best.

Their boots will be muddy and their clothes all torn
but these clothes they have so proudly worn.
Their hearts will be still and cold inside,
for they have fought their best and did so with pride.

So please take care of them as they pass Your way
the price of freedom they've already paid."

AMEN! 

by: Anonymous

God bless our Troops.

Looking for the light at the end of this tunnel of darkness..

Every month, I let myself get optimistic. And every month, I'm disappointed. I try not to be. Every month, it's like my personal mantra...it's gonna happen, it's gonna happen. But all I have to show is a huge ass bruise on my arm from the bloodwork. I may not have been trying long, but it hurts just the same. I know how badly it hurts Will too. He's so amazing, and so supportive, and it kills me that he's not a father yet. I see him with friends' kids...and it literally pains me.

Anyways, exciting news. Three friends are having baby boys, as well as my sister-in-law =D. So I get my baby dosage in other ways. Prayin' for healthy deliveries for all of them <3.

And I started babysitting Monday. It's going great so far. We watch Disney movies together, lol.

Hope this post finds everyone well <3.

In a slump

Lately, my hormones are taking a toll on me. Pretty sure it's a combination of stressing about my Momma and Gamma, my husband and his battles' safety, and worrying about the future. =/.

 I'm really scared of how this deployment may affect my husband. He lost a really good friend today, and he's pretty broken about it. I just wish I could take all the hurt away. Will's a pretty sensitive guy to begin with, so I can only imagine how he's dealing with it. I pray I'm strong, and unselfish enough, to handle all of our life changes. My husband is my world, but I'm not a fool. I see all the time about how deployments can change people...something just snaps. =/. We've maintained  good communication, and I pray we learn to adapt to one another again come redeployment.

 My Momma is battling this dementia to the best of her ability...and so far she's winning. But I can't stop myself from fearing she won't recognize me when we visit in a couple months. I've been trying to research the disease, to educate myself, and some of the published studies concern me. Her mental health can go downhill so quickly, without much warning.

 And my Gamma is nearing her 90's. These two women,...mean everything to me. They gave up so much for me, without complaint. They've always had my back, and I'm so grateful for their presence.

 I go soon for my next round of Clomid. I pray it works. I want nothing more than to start a family with Will, and I pray that it's in God's plan for us.


So many other changes are happening. I've put everything into some friendships, to no results, and I'm just drained, and it pains me. =(.

Sorry for the pity party guys.