New Year..new outlook

I dreaded January 5th with a horrible passion. But, that date (along with my faith in God, and some pretty amazing people) healed my bitter heart. I wasn't bitter towards anyone(despite one person's opinion), but bitter towards my situation. I realize that now, and I own up to it. We had hoped to conceive during R&R, but that didn't happen. And I think my attitude was part of it. I'm not saying I'm happy it happened, but I can cope with it now. The moment the wind took my balloon memorial, it was like it took my burden with it. If we would've conceived earlier,...I wasn't over loosing baby #1. Not saying I'll ever be completely over it, but I wasn't in the right mindset.  I thank my friends who didn't delete me over my lamenting over the day. There were quite a number who did,  but that's ok. I did need to get over myself in the nicest way possible. A many a number of friends suffered miscarriages in 2011, and there were a few who handled it way better than myself publicly. I pray for those who have endured this pain. But I think now, and Will would have missed so much. As he's reenlisting, he's still gonna miss so much, but he'll be home for my pregnancy, and the baby's first year with the new dwell time. That's perfect for me. And we've had to deal with a lot of obstacles our first two years of marriage, but I'm glad we did, because we survived. We're still in a honeymoon stage obviously, and there'll be more trying years in our hopefully many years of marriage. But we've learned how to overcome some problems, and how the one person uniquely handles stressful situations. And I've gotta say, so far, I'm pretty durn proud of us =D.

Off that depressing note, Lu & I had fun with Jess& Apollo. Ate yummy food, drank some delicious Sangria,  caught up on Glee, and I got stuff to redecorate my bathroom. Today I ran errands for my Gamma, and got LuLu groomed. She looks even more adorable, and her place of grooming had the cutest name: Paradise Pet  Palace. lol. Came home and cooked up some burgers for dinner, with a cranberry lemonade and cupcakes. =). Watched 'Pretty Woman' (miss you Amber! my 80's movie partner), and now about to head to bed. Excited about Winter Jam in Jacksonville this weekend =)). Hope everyone's doing good <3.